Remain Nameless part 20
„You…you are sick” Mickaela found it hard to speak and react for his senseless words “I can’t stand it anymore Bill. I don’t understand you and I can’t pretend I do. We live in a different worlds. I…just… ”
“Kela” he put one hand on her shoulder but she turned her face away from him. There was no denial he was sick and mental. Mickaela had so many solid proofs yet she was still by his side helping him the way she was able to. It had to end.
“No” she shook his hand away “Tom is my boyfriend. I know who he is. I know about his past and about his family” she was talking faster as the temperature of her blood was rising to almost boiling level “He is my love and my friend. We trust each other. I know his story and he knows mine. Can you believe it? Probably not. You have no friends and no one who trusts you! You are alone so you are trying to ruin other people’s lives! It’s pathetic and weak” she screamed everything out.
At first Bill only swallowed her words. She was afraid to look in his eyes filled with the coldest coldness so she shut her eyelids. The silence between them grew so heavy and so endless. The smell of Miranda’s body was getting more intense and awful.
“We have to hide the body” Bill finally spoke “Burn it and bury the ashes. No time to waste.”
If Mickaela thought she knew how ice cold Bill could be she had to take everything back. The temperature in the car dropped town below zero and the air got frozen.
“Drive away from here” Bill continued with the same not human voice.
Mickaela opened her eyes and she realized Bill’s face was right behind her back. He was sitting so close that she felt his breath on her skin. Then he whispered and it sounded like a scary hiss.
“Believe in what you want” there was purest hatred in his voice “You are stupid and naïve. Just like your mother. That’s why Tom is with you. You even look like her.” He was talking more and more quiet but it turned into the most horrible laugh “Go and protect your Tom. Give him your love and let him slowly…kill you.” He paused.
“Stop!” Mickaela completely lost herself and bitter tears watered her eyes. She was too weak to fight with them and too weak to fight with anything. “I don’t want to listen to this! Stop doing this to me Bill. I tried to be your fiend and you… Just stop.” She chocked on air and suddenly everything got drowned in darkness as her connection with reality broke down. Mickaela passed out.
Mickaela opened her eyes very out of sudden just as if someone would spill cold water on her face. The temperature was very low and her body was shivering because of coldness. At the same time she was aware she was laying inside something and her head was rested on something that felt like an old pillow.
She needed few moments to wake up completely and as she sat up and looked around she realized she was in something that had to be an old and holed tent.
“What is…” she tried to form her thought aloud but right then she heard strange sounds coming from outside. Someone was singing the saddest song she had ever heard. Mickaela couldn’t recognize the words or recall the melody. She didn’t know that song but it was so full of pain and sadness. So hypnotizing at the same time.
Not being aware she moved and slowly crawled out of the tent. Cold, fresh air hit her. It was windy and cloudy day but she was only focused on the voice.
It was Bill singing. She had known it from the first moment but now she saw it with her own eyes.
Bill was sitting in the grass few meters away from the tent. He was shirtless and his arms were wrapped around his shoulders. He was shaking but apparently it didn’t bother him at all. His eyes were plastered on something in space that Mickaela couldn’t see.
She didn’t want to interrupt him. She wanted to listen to his voice forever. Just sit behind his back and get drown in the beauty of the sadness in the song.
Trying to make no sound Mickaela sat on the grass. It was wet but and it was really cold there. Her body protested with stronger chills but she ignored it completely.
“I’m happy you are awake” Bill stopped singing and felt her presence without even turning around “I almost thought you were up to dying or something. But good moring then” his voice was emotionless and ironic. It caught Mickaela off guard.
“You were singing” she didn’t want to say it but it just came out.
Bill didn’t comment. She simply ignored her so she had to try other way. His song made her want to reach to him one last time.
“Aren’t you cold Bill?”
“No” he cut her off shortly.
“Where are we?” she realized they were actually on top of the hill.
“Away. Somewhere. Does it matter?”
“Bill?” he was really strange. Was it his another face?
“Have a sit with me.” It wasn’t an order but Mickaela couldn’t imagine not obeying. Her feet moved without her permission and few moments later she sat down by his side. There was nothing different or interesting there. Just the same field.
“Where’s Miranda?” she asked as randomly she remembered innocent victim of the story.
“Six feet under the ground I guess.”
“Shhh” he pressed his index finger to her lips “She is dead. Don’t think about her.” Strange smile appeared on his face. Whole situation was just getting stranger. “Enjoy this morning. Mornings always give us hope for a fresh start don’t they? You never know what will happen during the day. Isn’t it poetic? Or romantic?” his finger was still pressed to her lips so to stop her from talking “I have a story for you. Do you want to hear it? Such a long long story.”
She slowly nodded not knowing what to do.
“Once upon a time there was very beautiful woman. Everything about her was the perfect. She was classy, sexy and special. Very special. Men were crazy about her. She could have anyone and anything because she was the queen. Other women envied her. Every man was dreaming about her and one day one of them got her. They got married and some time later she gave birth to her daughter. What a precious child she was. Little copy of her perfect mother, part of that perfect family. Queen was happy. She was living the dream. Whole world was at her feet” it seemed like Bill was telling her a fairy tale but the plot gave Mickaela that unpleasant weird feeling “But one day everything changed. Queen met another man. Or boy. He was much younger but he fell in love with her. And it didn’t take long until she fell in love with him. Their love was their biggest secret. It was forbidden, wrong, thrilling, dangerous. They were crazy about each other and it seemed like nothing could stop their love. They wanted to wait until he got older and made their relationship official. She wanted to leave her husband and run away with her young prince. But then two things happened. First she got pregnant with him. Then someone found out their secret” Bill paused for almost whole minute “Someone who was jealous and someone who wanted to be better that his brother.”
Mickaela immediately put all those pieces together. It wasn’t fairy tale. Bill was telling her about the real past.
“My mother and Tom.”
Bill didn’t confirm but since that moment he changed his narration.
“I found it out and I wanted to destroy Tom. Since I can remember he had everything and I had nothing. He was better in everything and I was that worse brother. Everyone loved me and hated him. And when I found out the truth I wanted to be stronger than him once. One fucking time.” He wrapped his arms tighter “I waited some time, kept on observing them and getting more information. And when I was ready I wrote a letter to your dad. I told him everyting I knew. I sent it and I waited. At first he didn’t believe me but soon he realized I was right. I was so proud of myself. I won. Of course your mother claimed that she was pregnant with your father. He wanted to wait until the end of her pregnancy to be sure but when she was in the beginning of 9th month he found some proofs that the baby wasn’t his. He got mad. So so so mad. He wanted to kill your mother and he did something to her car so she had an accident. I’m not sure what happened then. I really don’t know. I wasn’t there but from what I know Tom got to her and managed to save the baby. To save his son.”
Mickaela could hardly breathe at that moment but Bill didn’t stop. She wanted to beg him to end the story. She didn’t want to know more yet she had to know the rest. He continued.
“I don’t know few other details. I don’t know where Tom took Ian. I only know that blood in my brother’s body got replaced by the purest anger and hatred. He wanted revenge. Of course he found out it was my fault so I was the first one to be blamed. He knew me so good. He used my own weaknesses and framed me in murders. I wasn’t stable and normal so it wasn’t hard for him.” He paused again and Mickaela could tell he skipped some parts but her voice stack in her throat so she couldn’t ask for the truth “With his help I turned into monster. With the biggest satisfaction he destroyed my life and kicked me in the prison with the name of the worst, heartless beast. Then he disappeared and came back when you met him to get your father because his anger never faded away. Believe me or not but we are both on his list. He still hates me. You know the reason. And why you? Because he still thinks that if you wouldn’t be alive your mother would leave your father and run away with Tom earlier. You were just another obstacle on the way of their love.” He finally finished leaving Mickaela with so many unspoken questions and so many not clear thoughts. Her head became so heavy. She started choking. It all couldn’t be truth. She needed more answer. She needed to hear the whole story one more time. Clearer, louder, more detailed. She needed someone to deny everything yet she knew it was the truth.
Then Bill opened his mouth again.
“None of us can live when Tom and Ian are alive. They will be chasing us forever.” He petted her cheek and slowly stood up leaving her alone on the ground “So you have to choose who to believe. Are you with me ready to help me? Or are you against me forcing me to kill you at the beginning of this part of the journey?”
Out of sudden a knife appeared in his hand and Mickaela knew he wasn’t joking.
To be continued…