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last night i had a dream that new tokio hotel single was in spanish and i was crying coz i couldnt understand a word. lol

can Bill “i know you want me and you die everytime you see me because i’m too fabulous for this world” Kaulitz post more pictures of himself? Like idk maybe pictures with bare chest for example.

Anonymous asked: wow i wasnt expecting that last part of ''kiss and swallow'' but i really like the story! :D

Thank you <3 I’m trying my best to always surprise you :D

posted 1 week ago

Kiss and Swallow part 9

Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8

Bill wasn’t exactly sure what he was doing so he let his feet lead him. Everything just to run away, to find a place where Polly couldn’t reach and find him. Not after everything that happened with Zoe. Bill wasn’t ready. Whole adventure was still beyond him. It wasn’t fun anymore. It was scary and as much as Bill could enjoy mindblowing sex, it wasn’t all for him.
So he kept on running and before he was able to realize it he was already stepping on the concrete ground. He just left the beach with no turning back. His head was full of thoughts but he ignored everything. Especially that part of his mind that was telling him to turn away, find Polly and kiss her so hard like there was no tomorrow. Then to let her to all those crazy things.
But Bill didn’t want to lose with his weak nature. Still Polly and Zoe were the same person and lying to Zoe wasn’t right. Or maybe he was just too sensitive. There was no answer for that moment. Bill had to hide somewhere where no one could find him. At least for the night.
Still not letting himself to slow down he ran to the main street and quickly caught the first cab. When the driver asked for the direction Bill just howled to take him to the hotel somewhere on the other side of the city and this way after less than 40 minutes he was safe.
Safe and so tired he could barely stay on his feet. He checked in the hotel, got to his room, wrote a message to Tom, lied down on the bed and fell asleep within a second.

When few hours later Bill opened his eyes again he didn’t know what was going on at first so He jumper off The bed so rapidly that he fell on the floor.
The room he was in was so unfamiliar and empty and it took him good 3 minutes to realize he was in the unfamiliar hotel room. Quickly everything that happened the previous day and last night came to Bill and strange feeling tightened his stomach. He had no idea what to do so to kill some time he grabbed his phone. There was one new message from Tom.
“Why you never told me how amazing our guest Zoe is? Man what a night. See you later”
Bill had to read the message again and again and again before its sense came to him. Tom spent the night with Polly.
With Zoe.
Something around Bill’s stomach tightened more. Was it jealousy? Or was it something else?
Bill didn’t know but immediately he was sure he had to come back home. Zoe was waiting for him there.
In a rush he left the hotel and again caught the cab.
Before he could fully realize it he was standing in front of his mansion and his hands were shaking. It wasn’t right. All in all Zoe or Polly was with Tom so she was save. Bill trusted Tom with everything he had but this case was different. It was not normal. Ever since Zoe had stepped in his life everything was strange.
“Tom?!” as soon as Bill opened the door he screamed his twin’s name “Tom where are you?”
Surprisingly his voice was full of anger and unfriendly vibes. Bill didn’t want it to sound it this way but he couldn’t help it.
“What’s the problem? Am here” he heard familiar voice coming from the kitchen so he headed there.
Fortunately Tom was there alone, sitting at the table and drinking beer. He was wearing only his boxers and it seemed he was very relaxed.
“Morning brother” he smiled to Bill but Bill didn’t return it.
“What were you doing last night?” Bill hissed and Tom’s smile froze in surprise.
“Someone is in the bad mood?”
“I asked what the fuck were you doing last night!”
“Easy Bill” Tom put his beer down “I wrote you. I was having fun with our sweet friend Polly. Or Zoe.” He grinned “She said you left her on the beach and she didn’t want to be alone so I took care of her. But no I didn’t force her to anything! She came to me.”
Of course Bill exactly how had been but he was still upset.
“She is not a toy you can play with.”
“She is amazing my brother. I…”
“Shut up!” Bill was getting out of control “You don’t know anything.”
“And you do? All I know is that we have young and crazy girl living with us. She likes fun so what’s your problem?”
“It’s not like this Tom.” Bill inhaled and exhaled “I don’t know what’s going on here but…her personality is split. At nights she is different person than during days. I don’t know why and I know nothing about her past. But when she is Zoe she doesn’t remember anything from being Polly. I keep on lying to her but…”
He wasn’t able to finish his sentence as just in that moment Zoe stepped in the kitchen.
When Bill saw her at first something in his stomach turned upside down but then he almost pass out. There were massive bruises all around her neck as if she had been chocked last night. It looked terrible.
Automatically Bill looked at Tom sending him killing glare and Tom just whispered ‘sorry soundlessly’
“Hey guys” her voice sounded still sleepy and it looked like she hadn’t noticed bruises yet. Bill didn’t know if it was good or bad.
“Hey Zoe” Bill sent her innocent smile. She was making him feel strange, comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time “Want something to eat or drink?”
“Coffee please” she smiled and walked to the table where she sat. Bill noticed that Tom’s muscles tensed and he knew his brother was just confused. In that situation it was it was normal.
“Did you sleep well?” Tom tried to start normal conversation.
“I don’t know. I don’t remember waking up but I had to probably sleepwalk again. Bill said it happened before. Have you seen my neck? Maybe I tried to choke myself?” it was obvious she was nervous and desperate to hide her fear “Or I don’t know.”
“Let me look at it” partly Bill was relieved she knew about bruises already.
Slowly he came to her and gently touched bruises on her neck with his fingertips. He examined every single one of them. “Are you feeling okay?”
“Yeah. Maybe just a bit dizzy.”
“You should rest today” whether he wanted it or no his voice was shaking “We can chill out together.”
“I don’t want to destroy your plans.”
“Shh.” He petted her hair “It’s okay.”
“I’m gonna leave you. I have few things to do downtown so” Tom did his best to disappear as soon as possible “Have a nice day.”
“Bye Tom” Zoe smiled to him and Bill wanted to protest. He wanted to keep her every smile for himself. He just wanted to keep her for himself.
After drinking coffee and eating breakfast they went to Bill’s bedroom. The atmosphere was none and none of them got back to the topic of bruises on her neck.
But they made love again and again it was very personal, very sensitive, very beautiful.
Bill felt like a newborn and he didn’t want to let her out of his arms. But at the same time he felt more and more guilty. What if he was falling in love with the girl with unknown past? It was too dangerous.
When Zoe fell asleep he carefully left the bed and went to his laptop. Then he started to look for missing people in the internet.
At first no results came up. There were various girls reported but none of them was his Zoe. It was both relief and heavy feeling. Bill felt worse and worse with every moment.
But it was nothing comparing to the feeling that haunted Bill when suddenly picture of her face appeared on his screen.
He found what he was looking for and he wasn’t ready to look at it but his eyes were reading already.
Her name was Emma. Emma Wilson and according to the information given she had mental illness so she could be dangerous for herself and for other people.
It wasn’t all. The worst part came at the end of the report. It made Bill want to turn back time and never let himself start looking for anything.
If you know or have any information where our beloved wife and mother is please let us know. We miss her.
To be continued…

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it all started with #onebottleofwine